THE PROPOSAL – I

 

To Her ,

I never thought i  would do this. I never thought i would say this, like this. In front of the whole world.

But then , since i have met you nothing has happened the  way i thought it would.

I have rarely got a chance to think and plan the next hour of my life, forget planning my life instead.

You don’t meet the criteria i set for my life partner and i don’t think you ever can . You are not tall enough, you are not fair enough and to worsen it all you have the weirdest sense of fashion.

But you have done things , which no one else did. And i don’t think they ever can.

You have filled my black, blue and grey life with colours. I now feel white, orange, pink , red , yellow , green  (and all the other shades i can’t even differentiate in reality )

You have made me happy. Sometimes in ways, i didn’t know it existed and sometimes when i didn’t want too ( stop eavesdropping and laughing on other’s talks. okay? ).  I have laughed till my stomach hurt, I have cried while laughing in moments and places that I shared with you.

You have made me angry. I had never felt such intense rage before. Today my blood boils if you even try to mockingly pity yourself.  You, of all people, should know your value and no one in this world  can let you feel lesser than the amazing charm you are. Not even you. ( Maybe, sometimes the guard outside your building can. Until you stop jumping through the walls.)

You have made me strong. (Not physically. You need to learn things about that from me though ). You have made me believe in myself , in all twists and turns. Your ways  have been weird though , just like you. But you have been the sole motivation (and irritation too, sometimes baby)  in my hardest times.

You have made me weak. The very thought of loosing you , of never being able to hear your endless chatter and  that crackling laughter( please learn to laugh like a lady) , pains me. And that pain is indescribable . But i know where it pains. Right here , in the centre of my ribs. As if someone , just took everything from my inside and left air that weighs more than a billion stones.

Its not that i wont find the girl of my criteria ( i am a superstar, i know ). I don’t want her.

I want you.

You might not want me back. And that’s okay. Because you don’t deserve anything less than the best. And if i am not the best for you, i don’t want you to want me.

I say this today in front of the whole world, because i want the world to know. That you darling , are a Gem. The most precious gem this world will ever see.  You are to be kept safe, close to the heart and protected at all cost.

And if and only if, you feel that i am worthy enough, I,  ask you to be the gem of my life.  To spread light and love in my world, in ways just you can do.

It would of, course not be an easy journey. Because while you might be a gem, you are a stubborn piece.  And so am I. And i am one stubborn ass. But no one said it would be Easy. All they said, is that , It would be worth it. 

From Him

Am I ready?

My life may be a mess but atleast I look pretty in the dress!

This got to be the defining mantra of my life. In case I plan to continue with my sanity,that is. 

Since a few days I have been a mixed bag of emotions. One day I am alarmingly happy. And then gloomy. So gloomy that my friends are scared to even approach me !

And why wouldn’t they be . After all my emotions have reached such heights of confusion that I literally hit my friend with my keys. Straight onto his face. Without a reason.

Thank God he was high ! 😉

These mood swings have been a perennial problem. Although till now they have fortunately been non violent only 😂 . My room is the biggest evidence of this turbulence. Clothes , washed and dirty alike lying on every possible furniture.Bits of paper and tissues  decorating the floor. And then there is me…somehow adjusting for space in the bed between my books and pillows!

So why has my life come down to this?

There could be several excuses.

I am a Cancerian woman,so being cranky is something even my stars have chosen for me! Then there are the female hormones. These i-dont-know-how-they-look substances have the audacity to keep me irritated. And the fact that I can’t do anything about them,only adds to my irritation! Also doctors tell me I have some kind of allergic bronchial asthma ,so the recent weather changes also ensure that I wake up early ,very early morning coughing and gasping for breath and when it finally comes , i cant go back to sleep , because ,hello you have a bank loan to repay,so please attend your classes. let’s also not ignore the fact that I also sleep late ,very late in night, thanks to assignments submissions and hell yeah! Classes.

To be frank ,it would be really bad of me if I did not give myself the pleasure of being irritated and snapping at every body.

Now that I have made a mention of doctors, if I do look from their perspective these are all mere symptoms. Like a fever is just a symptom. The real trouble is something else.

And I believe that something else is CHANGE. Within six months,my life has literally taken a 180 degree turn. Things I had never dreamt of,forget about planning have happened. And have happened so quick that there hasn’t been enough time to even absorb their effects.

For someone who shirked at the very idea of travelling and moving out of the comfort of my house, I have been thrown more than a 1000km away and been home  only once in 6 months for 4 days!

The confidence and wisdom I thought I had gained after the 10+2+4 years of education has all been thrown out of the window. Yeah ,once upon a time in a very distant land I had plans and goals of being the best in whatever I do but ,well ,here I am struggling and fighting to just keep pace with my classmates and professors.

More than the fast paced Bombing of Knowledge at me is the speed at which people have walked in and out of my life.

Strangers from different parts of , not only the country ,  but even the world have become a part of my life. People who have seen so much more of the world than me, from different walks of life, each with their own story now surround me. And among them I have found a few special ones, The ones who I would want to be included in my lists of Forevers 😍.The ones who are family  :).  The ones who have bought entertainment to my life with the best and worst jokes of all times!  The ones who have taught me the true meaning of creative comebacks 😂😂😂 and the ones who very generously give me “gyaan” about this life 😋

My inner goddess has awaken and is looking around. Happily dancing away as it can finally satisfy it’s fantasies with a new crush everyday 😉

Or maybe HE is the same all days 😍😂

And then there are people who have shut their doors on me. The ones I had hoped would not. The ones I had grown not only fond of ,but used to. Their presence no more surprised me,but their absence shakes me up. Sigh. But as they “One fine day”! Hopefully our paths will cross each others’ again. 🙂

So all in all I am amused and perplexed at this new roller coaster ride, one which I hadn’t even asked for or infact even paid for 😑Every moment here is teaching me something. Things I want to learn and things I definitely don’t want to learn.

It’s just that all of it is happening too fast too soon. Maybe I am not ready for such experiences. Not all at once. And not now.

But when has life waited for someone?

And seriously, What is life without some spice?.😉
P.S When they say,do what you love. They are actually right. Writing all of this down has soothed me down. Peppy side up again 😁😊

A Picture says a 1000 words ( 722 in my case)

DAY 2 :

As If the 30 day challenge was not enough to satiate my needs of expressing ( and gaining popularity 😛 ) I have also decided to be a part of the Incredible Blogger Marathon Challenge. This is a fun challenge where I have been given 10 tasks to be performed.

And today’s task is called FREEZE A FOTO . I need to select a photograph and describe it , obviously in my own words 😀

As I rammed through my collection of pictures in gadgets ( a laptop and phone 😛 ) , I found this one picture which suits the mood better than everything.
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Well to the unknown , this a photograph of my batchmates from our last fest at college.  We have been living in the same hostel , some of us in the same rooms too for 4 years of our life.  ^.^

And now with our college coming to an end there is hardly a month more before we all go back to our homes and never come back to sleep with each other again. ( Pun intended 😛 )

The four walls of a girls hostel have always been the talking point of all guys in all boys hostel. Of course ,they will  disagree now but then WE KNOW ( Girls always know stuff…don’t they ?  : P)

So well , this post is to Kaveri Hostel . The 4 years we spent here as a famliy . Doing all kinds of stuff TOGETHER .

We have been sick of Kriti always being stuck with her phone : P .   We have been “mesmerised” by Neha’s choicest colourful pyjamas. We have been taught  Food Art by yukta in the mess.
You girls have listened patiently to my random non sense chatter . Like why was I even telling you about my friends of play school ?? -_-
We have been awed by Kavya’s impeccably clean room .
And sneha’s room has always served the purpose of a common room !
Vipasha has irritained (enterain + irritate ) us all times of day. (Why you do this pasha ? )
We have over heard Akanksha’s daily plans , without a choice 😛
We have been swayed by Khushbu’s SWAG .We have been lucky to see Chanchal’s dance moves .
Garima has shown us the use of all face packs 😛  Kanchan is the ultimate hostel hack . You have her. You need no one else.  We have been lucky to see the real face of Kiran- Crazy and mad 😛 . Coy? Never.  We have always been looked after by Kirti .  We have seen Aayushi fall again. And again.
Obviously we have seen Shruti study. But we have also heard her speak Hindi and spell “Kshatriya” 😛 . Rashmi has always been the slowest eater.
We have seen Aditi and Taniya always run for, you know what 😉 We have been wowed by Vedangi’s creativity.  We have all been dragged out of our beds by Shibali . We have all stopped Ritu from singing. Nripa has told us all how and where Himachal is. And also who, how and where Jimmy is ! 😛
We have laughed non stop on Subhagya’s sarcasm.  And we have always, always found food in Sonvy’s room . 🙂

We have gossiped . We have bitched .

We have danced and danced . Nagins and Baratis .We have been Munnis and Sheilas and of course Pritam pyare ❤ 😛 .

We have studied  😛 .

We have somehow digested the mess food for so long. O how much I will miss the Poha 😛

We have seen each other in our sexiest avatars  😉 .

We have tolerated each other’s mood swings.

We have not thrashed the birthday girl 😛 . We have made her the birthday princess ! ❤

We have slept entire days.  And we have talked entire nights.

We have cracked our share of jokes on NIFTEM Studs.  We have fan-girled a lot on REAL studs !

We have slept on each others beds. Cosy . ( Sexy ? 😛 )

We have had monkeys , rats , dead pigoens and a lot of other bio diversity here.

We have made our most dangerous plans.

We have chatted in washrooms.

We have pulled each others legs.

And O lord! We have even played hide –n- seek  😛 😛

And while doing this all we have grown up. From 1st floor and 2nd floor we have all become 4th year mams.
From strangers and awkwardness we have moved to Friendship and shamelessness.

We have found our sisters for a lifetime.  FOREVER ❤

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DAY 1 : Things that make me Happy .

I have a new name for myself.

 Ms Lazybones.

 I am so lousy , so lazy and yet so pretty ^-^ . ( lame as well ? 😛 )

This blog has been around , waiting for me to update it and I  am all like, No, Not today. For days and weeks.
So  for the sake of you, My Peppynoytes, I take up a challenge.

The 30 Day writing challenge.  b1

I am going to blog.
Random things.
About me.
About life.
About us 🙂

And today its going to be the 10 THINGS THAT MAKE ME REALLY HAPPY.

This looks so easy ans simple to list. But do you realise the amount of pain I had to go through when I was striking off some points “ that could not make it to the list”??? Oh boy! Do you ?

So well with a hand on my heart and a billion dollar smile on my face , lets get started

1. Home made food.  b3
To understand why this is on number 1 , you would have to be either a hosteller or a corporate victim , who survives on McD and Dominos for 4 out of 7 days a week . 😦
My plate may not be served with all those luxurious and impossible- to- pronounce dishes.Just  Plain, pure, boring food made by my mom . Dal Chawal , if you must.
I will relish that  to the last bite. OM NOM NOM all the way!

2.Talking.b4
Anytime. Anywhere. Anyone .( Okay, not every one actually :P) . Anything. I love to chatter away all the time. Never too lazy for that . 😀
You will listen me blabber about my life. Your crush. SRK’s movies .The new restaurant.Lilly singh. Pretty much anything.

3.New clothes.
Crisp. Clean. Pretty clothes. Its like I don’t even need any accessories the first time I wear a new dress. I have  a 100 watt smile pasted across my face. 😀

4. Reading. Old books.b5
Like the really old –rusty –brown paged books.  I  am not a kindle person  by choice.  The feeling when you hold a book and curl up in your bed , its beyond my capability to describe in words. And their smell? Oh My God!  It drives me crazy. I feel like it even turns me on! 😉

5. Helping Friends.
I feel so satisfied when I am of use to my friends. Whether its giving advices, listening to their troubles or even giving my notes.
Yeah I also feel happy when I help them pass a test, but can’t say it in public with so many judge-y eyes looking at me “ That’s not what a friend would do!”. Yes. But exam time  is not the time to  preach. Just tell the answers . 😛 😛 .

6.Writing . b8
Of course. This HAD to be on the list. Framing sentences with just the right choice of words to describe exactly what you are feeling. That’s an achievement. And the pleasure is all mine *-*.
But i don’t like typing . So you see, that’s how it all gets delayed 😀
Give me a pen and paper. All my notebooks have my many  masterpieces jotted down in them . 😛

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When the sun is displaying all its might and you shut the drapes, drink a glass of cool water , close your eyes and just get lost in the magical word of “Sleep”. Nothing calms me down more than this. I don’t even realise what day or century it is sometimes when I wake up . Oh yes.  I  am back to reality again .    -_-

8.The October weather.
The clear bright sky. Cool breezes. The nature at its best , if you ask me. Its not biting cold. Its not burning hot. Neither is it still and dull.  Its just perfect. I am at my peppiest and happiest best in Octobers.

“Outside, a gusty October breeze was combing leaves from the trees and sending them across her backyard in colorful skitters.”

Stephen King, Full Dark, No Stars

9. My BIRTHDAYS.
With the entire world wishing me to be happy on that day , can I help not being THE HAPPIEST this day?  Oh I love the attention , the wishes  and of course the gifts that I receive .  I am on top of the world on the 6th of july . ( You see what I did there ? ;). Yes wish me this year 😛 ).
And I feel like I must mention here , that it’s the entire concept of birthdays that make me happy.  Who was the great person  to have thought of it!  I feel like it would be a woman. Am I too sexist ? 😛 . But guys  are just so normal even on birthdays! :P.
Everything looks so beautiful and decorated. then there is that delicious fancy cake 😀

10. The WEIRD STUFF.
okay . I may come across as insane, but there is this one thing that literally makes me so happy , I feel like blessing anyone who comes across.
 You see, with the sweet blood I have, a lot and believe me A LOT of mosquitoes bite me. Specially on my feet.  NO! THIS DOESN’T MAKE ME HAPPY!!.
But when I pour ice cold , chilly water on these bites, it’s a heavenly feeling altogether. And no, don’t put your feet under the tap. Don’t ruin it. Slowly  and slowly. Drop by drop . Treasure the pleasure ,mate!

There I did it.  10 things 😀
Lets see what tomorrow brings . ❤