Am I ready?

My life may be a mess but atleast I look pretty in the dress!

This got to be the defining mantra of my life. In case I plan to continue with my sanity,that is. 

Since a few days I have been a mixed bag of emotions. One day I am alarmingly happy. And then gloomy. So gloomy that my friends are scared to even approach me !

And why wouldn’t they be . After all my emotions have reached such heights of confusion that I literally hit my friend with my keys. Straight onto his face. Without a reason.

Thank God he was high ! 😉

These mood swings have been a perennial problem. Although till now they have fortunately been non violent only 😂 . My room is the biggest evidence of this turbulence. Clothes , washed and dirty alike lying on every possible furniture.Bits of paper and tissues  decorating the floor. And then there is me…somehow adjusting for space in the bed between my books and pillows!

So why has my life come down to this?

There could be several excuses.

I am a Cancerian woman,so being cranky is something even my stars have chosen for me! Then there are the female hormones. These i-dont-know-how-they-look substances have the audacity to keep me irritated. And the fact that I can’t do anything about them,only adds to my irritation! Also doctors tell me I have some kind of allergic bronchial asthma ,so the recent weather changes also ensure that I wake up early ,very early morning coughing and gasping for breath and when it finally comes , i cant go back to sleep , because ,hello you have a bank loan to repay,so please attend your classes. let’s also not ignore the fact that I also sleep late ,very late in night, thanks to assignments submissions and hell yeah! Classes.

To be frank ,it would be really bad of me if I did not give myself the pleasure of being irritated and snapping at every body.

Now that I have made a mention of doctors, if I do look from their perspective these are all mere symptoms. Like a fever is just a symptom. The real trouble is something else.

And I believe that something else is CHANGE. Within six months,my life has literally taken a 180 degree turn. Things I had never dreamt of,forget about planning have happened. And have happened so quick that there hasn’t been enough time to even absorb their effects.

For someone who shirked at the very idea of travelling and moving out of the comfort of my house, I have been thrown more than a 1000km away and been home  only once in 6 months for 4 days!

The confidence and wisdom I thought I had gained after the 10+2+4 years of education has all been thrown out of the window. Yeah ,once upon a time in a very distant land I had plans and goals of being the best in whatever I do but ,well ,here I am struggling and fighting to just keep pace with my classmates and professors.

More than the fast paced Bombing of Knowledge at me is the speed at which people have walked in and out of my life.

Strangers from different parts of , not only the country ,  but even the world have become a part of my life. People who have seen so much more of the world than me, from different walks of life, each with their own story now surround me. And among them I have found a few special ones, The ones who I would want to be included in my lists of Forevers 😍.The ones who are family  :).  The ones who have bought entertainment to my life with the best and worst jokes of all times!  The ones who have taught me the true meaning of creative comebacks 😂😂😂 and the ones who very generously give me “gyaan” about this life 😋

My inner goddess has awaken and is looking around. Happily dancing away as it can finally satisfy it’s fantasies with a new crush everyday 😉

Or maybe HE is the same all days 😍😂

And then there are people who have shut their doors on me. The ones I had hoped would not. The ones I had grown not only fond of ,but used to. Their presence no more surprised me,but their absence shakes me up. Sigh. But as they “One fine day”! Hopefully our paths will cross each others’ again. 🙂

So all in all I am amused and perplexed at this new roller coaster ride, one which I hadn’t even asked for or infact even paid for 😑Every moment here is teaching me something. Things I want to learn and things I definitely don’t want to learn.

It’s just that all of it is happening too fast too soon. Maybe I am not ready for such experiences. Not all at once. And not now.

But when has life waited for someone?

And seriously, What is life without some spice?.😉
P.S When they say,do what you love. They are actually right. Writing all of this down has soothed me down. Peppy side up again 😁😊

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The STORM

Stop . 
Right there.
And breathe. Obviously you have been doing that for at least a few decades so it must be easy. 
So don’t just breathe. Feel your breath. Feel the fresh oxygen going into your body , doing its job and providing you energy to carry on. Feel the body throw out the carbon dioxide. Feel its warmth. 
Kudos. 
There! You spent one second of your life in the most relaxed way possible. 
And if you continue to do this for even a minute, you will know that “relax” is an understatement. This simple exercise is the most easiest way to rejuvenate yourself instantly.

The next question that comes up is “What exactly is your point Miss ?”

This exactly.
The involuntary need of speed we have almost imbibed in our system. To be always, always in a hurry. Whether its you ,whether its me , we all want things right here, right now!!! And there are no reasons to it. Its just a fact, a herd mentality where none of us wants to be left behind. 

Talking of herd mentality, although it is something looked down by us Human beings, it is just one of the ways we resemble the entire working system of nature and other beings. 
We know the basics- need for food, attention and sunlight.:P 

I want to draw your attention to the similarity of the storms of nature and humans. 
Storms of nature , as defined by humans, refer to violent disturbances of atmosphere, that bring about destruction, more often than not. 

There are innumerable instances in our life ,when we have these exact disturbances spiralling within us with such high intensities that even we tend to destroy all that comes into our path , metaphorically and sometimes literally as well 😛 .
And what is the end of it all? Only wastage. Wasted energy , wasted time and wasted peace of mind. 

Well , the nature does what it has to do. 
But we are humans- the same beings who haughtily pat ourselves on our backs, for we have the best evolved brains and make the most optimum use of them. 
Then WHY do we do this ???

If we have been able to utilise the energy of the wind and the sun and the tides, why do we not utilise our own energy ?

Take a moment to digest the levels of efficiency and overwhelming positivism at the very least , that could result if we harnessed our energies in the right direction.
If instead of throwing and breaking things , we instead decide to better organise them?
If instead of shouting and screaming, we dance it all out or do an impromptu karaoke?
If instead of blaming every body and every thing, we assume it was our fault and work to improve that? 
Or the simplest of all , just take a moment right then and there to feel our life. Slow calm breathing with a look-back on our own story. On how have we actually contributed to our story ? On if we actually were the Hero of our own life?

These are not Herculean tasks after all, although for sure they do look much easier in writing.  

But is it not better to try it out for our own sake and see the results? What if we do have the potential to be able to do this ? What if these storms are just a sign of the impending and freshening Rains of our story ??

As Louisa May Alcott puts it

I am not afraid of the storms for I am learning how to sail my ship . 

 

P.S Writing in response to the prompt of the day STORM

 

 

 

 

 

 

A little tip :)

I have  been really busy these days.
Not been able to keep up with my own challenge.
And like all failures teach you something,this did too.
Dream big for sure,but  remember to be realistic and practical. And oh always ,always have a plan B!”.

Well that’s my learning, not every one will agree to this thought.
You need not to,too.

What is more important for you All to agree and realise is that ,we must learn from everything.
Failure,success or term it anything,we must keep on learning and keep on growing.

Feeling dejected will never help.

Understanding the problem,improving on it, learning definitely will 😃

Shortage of time , forces me to conclude here itself. And since a picture says a thousand words ,here I am sharing a quote I came across which should be the life mantra of one and all.

Cheers to a happy life 😍😇

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The new word of the town *OFFENDED*

Offended? Really that’s all you got ? May be you could have tried “Bored ” Or  “Tired” Or even  the F word! But , why offended darling ?

Well , this is  in reference to the latest Tanmay Bhatt CONTROVERSY. For the uninformed, this guy is a stand up comedian , who made a FUN Video about two Indian celebrities and posted it on social media. The fans of these celebrities got ” offended ” by it and want it removed. 

I really don’t know whether its real public who express their anger on such “Issues” or are they the ” Robots” we always have to prove we aren’t by entering those captchas ?? 

Because this fact is quite disturbing. No , not the existence of robots on Facebook.

But the fact that even in this age and time people got so much free time and emotions that their sentiments get hurt on  each and every joke that is ever made?

Do they Google the most silly thing present today, watch it and then get offended? 

Because ,lets make things clear first. I personally did not find the video even funny. Neither did my friends ( I made them watch it 😛 )  There was no joke .   😦
 And may be that’s the only thing i was hurt about. My expectations not being fulfilled. 

This has become a trend, specially in India. Not only in regard to this video, its just a needle in the haystack! People are using their “Right to speech” to take away other’s right to speech . 

Oh , you say it’s not Good for the society ?

Well yes. There are many things not good for the society. Unlike them , this has a solution. Don’t like it? DONT WATCH IT . Simple 🙂

Because if you were really worried about the society , you would have long gone ,thanks the heart attacks and nervous breakdowns you would have suffered.

Because you would have been hurt ,each time a girl was raped.Whether she was wearing a skirt or whether she was a 2 year old kid !

There would have been a threat to your religious sentiments, each time an innocent animal was sacrificed in the name of faith! And not when a person poked fun at some Godman.

 It would have pained you to see dirty naked little tiny kids beg on the streets in the scorching summer. And then get elated even on receiving a single rupee.

Your anger would have lost its limits when you would have come across the crores of taxpayer’s money being used by corrupt politicians for their Birthday celebrations. Not when a Bollywood movie was made .

You would have been offended when a young Indian sport-star was unable to represent his country , not for the lack of talent , but for the lack of proper infrastructure . And not when someone wore a skirt to her tennis match ..

Trust me , you would have been offended by humanity , every time you read that another bomb was dropped off in Syria or Pakistan or Palestine or  some other place. (Only that would have happened , in case you were actually aware that the world does not revolve around you  🙂 )

And since you are alive and kicking, I am sure none of this happened. There was never an outrage over any of these. Do not mention the various Tweets or Re-tweets or Facebook posts you have shared for the cause. The truth is , they DON’T MATTER . ( Heart breaking , is it ? ) 

 This only  proves you don’t bat an eye lid for the cause of the society.
You are one bored human , who wants cheap publicity by misusing other people’s names.

Calling me selfish , are you ? Well, I will take that as a compliment.  It’s better than being a dual faced hypocrite . Any day!. Try it out  🙂 


P.S
 This does not mean I support non sense humour. I just don’t violently oppose it. These people work for trps.  Dont trend them on media , they will understand and give you better jokes next time 😀 

 

DID YOU KNOW? “Ringing the wrong rose”

DAY 10 : 
  A third of the 30 day challenge already completed! 😀 

Today I introduce a new section to Peppy Notes!!
THE  “DID YOU KNOW?” stuff  :D.
Knowledge shared is the best knowledge gained. So here I am , all ready to share some amazing and interesting facts and stories. (If its my blog, it’s got to be interesting..don’t worry 😛 )
Alright then , lets begin 😀

Today’s post is going to take you back to your childhood. The pre school days. The days you went to school to eat and play. And , yes sleep ! 😛

Those days are synonymous with lots of colour, no tensions and fun songs ! 🙂
The songs we call Nursery Rhymes. 

There is this one Nursery Rhyme that goes like this ( Obviously you remember! 😛 )
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 Ring a ring o’roses,
a pocketful of posies,
atishoo, atishoo,
We all fall down” 😀  ( And similar versions 😛 )

Do you know what this means? 

Who THINKS about the meaning of nursery rhymes ?

Well , in this case  you should 

The rhyme has a very deeper and darker story attached to it. 
The rhyme dates back to London,1665. The time of  the Great Plague of London.

The “ring of roses” describes the red buboes around the neck of an infected person (swollen lymph nodes);  
“posies” refers to the herbs or flowers that people carried in their pockets to breathe hoping it would protect them from the disease;
“at-choo” refers to a sneeze which was the sign of coming illness.
“All fall down” describes the suddenness of death from what is today called “Black Death” or Bubonic Plague.

Not rosy at all! 😦

Like all stories of folklore and historic times , even this one has its share of oppositions and supporters. You can read about it here Story behind Ring-a-ring-a-roses and here Ring around a rosie . 

But isn’t it fascinating to learn about such tales ? Have you got some ? Please share 🙂

P.S : Not new , but a rather different interpretation of a nursery rhyme. A part of the IBMC Challenge  😀
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No more no NO!!

Peppy Notes !!

The study of nano particles , their physics and their interactions with biological membranes is not difficult.

The calculations of Budgets and Taxable income are not difficult.

Standing on one leg for a day is not difficult.

And then you may ask , if this is easy, then what is difficult??

The most difficult thing is the ART OF SAYING NO. you could call it science too , but I like it this way 😛

The values and morals engraved in us have taught us everything , but, to say no.

Not for all though. There are some great fellows who have mastered this art very well. so well that they blatantly refuse to do things , without even a little respect for others, absorbed in their own little world. This is even in matters , when both a no and yes would not affect them.

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Such is life.

                                                                     FEELING BLUE 

Every body tells us to always plan our life ahead. Take all actions thinking about the long-term benefits of the plans.
And these same people also tell us that the only constant thing in the world is change.
Strange!

Anyways, coming back to plan and planning, all of you must be knowinng the feeling when things actually turn out the way you plan. Whether it is related to your career choice , your investment plan  or even your decision to not carry an umbrella.
That feeling of elation when things go perfect smooth. All our parents , families and friends advises seem to blend in the perfect way of our life.

Only more often than not, this rarely happens. how so much we plan and prepare and act accordingly , life beats us to it. We stand there at important turnarounds , bewildered and confused about our next “plans”. Feeling sad and dejected, we keep on trying as we don’t have any other option.

sometimes life is not only hard, but wicked and cruel. It will fool you. with a smirk on your face, life will support you. Things and events will happen in your favour, the way you had it all chalked out. And then , when you are almost there…BAM! Life has the last laugh. Trust me , this is the worst that can happen to you. Or no wait, it gets even worse, when you fail again, not only  trying all you can , but also while trying to find a reason behind this.
These last-minute twists of life , are so hard to survive. Not only are you unable to even  find a point from where you can restart , you don’t even have time.

So well such is life.!

Beauty is a state of mind.

DAY 06 ! Plus my first try at fiction writing 😀

Tring tring the bell rang.
She leaped out of her bed.
Baba had already picked up the phone. With knots in her stomach she tried to hear the conversation.
“Hmm”. “Okay”. “Okay”.”No”. Cut. “These salesman today” Baba stomped out of the room.
Oh it was the salesman after all. She went back to her bed again. Closing her eyes she hoped her dream would continue. Of course it didn’t. She was now just laying in her bed , imagining things and rewinding her memory.

Her marriage had been fixed. She had only heard his name. But a name was enough for her to dream. To make plans. And in these plans she even defeated the cheesy Bollywood movies. Day night all she could think of was him.
He had called her last week.
They had talked. He had talked. Told her to meet at the river side this weekend. She had just smiled and agreed.
No Baba wouldn’t know about it. It was her first date . Fathers don’t need to be told about it.

The d day was here. She was getting ready. And with every passing moment she was getting sad.
Each time she looked at her reflection she let out a sigh. Why was she so dark? Why wasn’t she as fair as the other girls. Why was she not beautiful?
And slowly her thought process worsened. What if he doesn’t like her? What if he rejects her?
Oh she panicked. She tried all creams and she tried all remedies.
Nothing would work.
She was still dark. Ugly.

All her dreams came crashing down. The castles she had built, she broke them all. Herself. She didn’t want him to do that. She couldn’t bear someone else do that.

With tears in her eyes and lost hopes she went to the river side. The sun was about to set. Why was he not here yet?? Had he already rejected her?
He could have met her once at least. She was black on the outside. Not inside .

“Sana” called a voice from behind. She had heard that voice before. Butterflies stormed in her stomach.
She turned around.
It was him. Her eyes sparkled but her brain reminded her of the reality that was about to happen.

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They started walking on the beach. Talking. Smiling. They even laughed once.
Oh. So he doesn’t want me to feel bad. He will tell me at the end of the meeting today.

To her surprise he didn’t.
Not this meeting.
Not after any meeting .

And with so many beautiful meetings finally came the day of marriage.

She didn’t want to be heartbroken after this.
She decided to ask him straight.

She called him on his telephone. “Why are you marrying me? I am ugly. I am dark. Why?”.

For an instant , the other side went blank. And with a slight smirk came the reply.
” Do wear the lehenga I have selected for you.” Cut.
Sana couldn’t bear to see the lehenga. She didn’t want to be left at the altar. The lehenga would be so pretty.

Still,the evening came.
The lehenga came. Red and green it was.
A note was there too.

I was in search of skin
Bright or dark, fat or thin
I wanted someone who felt through her heart
You, my dear, have that art.
Who said you are not beautiful?
My brain looses its senses on your one look.
You have a dusky complexion my dear
Why is that wrong I fear!
Your eyes sparkle when you talk
And oh your playful walk

I want to marry you and not your colour.
Its the souls that will be together forever.<3″

Sana was numb. She looked at her smile in the mirror. The billion dollar smile. Oh yes her eyes were sparkling.
Her face was glowing and it was not because of some creams.

Yes she was beautiful. And his love only made her prettier. 🙂

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