THE PROPOSAL – I

 

To Her ,

I never thought i  would do this. I never thought i would say this, like this. In front of the whole world.

But then , since i have met you nothing has happened the  way i thought it would.

I have rarely got a chance to think and plan the next hour of my life, forget planning my life instead.

You don’t meet the criteria i set for my life partner and i don’t think you ever can . You are not tall enough, you are not fair enough and to worsen it all you have the weirdest sense of fashion.

But you have done things , which no one else did. And i don’t think they ever can.

You have filled my black, blue and grey life with colours. I now feel white, orange, pink , red , yellow , green  (and all the other shades i can’t even differentiate in reality )

You have made me happy. Sometimes in ways, i didn’t know it existed and sometimes when i didn’t want too ( stop eavesdropping and laughing on other’s talks. okay? ).  I have laughed till my stomach hurt, I have cried while laughing in moments and places that I shared with you.

You have made me angry. I had never felt such intense rage before. Today my blood boils if you even try to mockingly pity yourself.  You, of all people, should know your value and no one in this world  can let you feel lesser than the amazing charm you are. Not even you. ( Maybe, sometimes the guard outside your building can. Until you stop jumping through the walls.)

You have made me strong. (Not physically. You need to learn things about that from me though ). You have made me believe in myself , in all twists and turns. Your ways  have been weird though , just like you. But you have been the sole motivation (and irritation too, sometimes baby)  in my hardest times.

You have made me weak. The very thought of loosing you , of never being able to hear your endless chatter and  that crackling laughter( please learn to laugh like a lady) , pains me. And that pain is indescribable . But i know where it pains. Right here , in the centre of my ribs. As if someone , just took everything from my inside and left air that weighs more than a billion stones.

Its not that i wont find the girl of my criteria ( i am a superstar, i know ). I don’t want her.

I want you.

You might not want me back. And that’s okay. Because you don’t deserve anything less than the best. And if i am not the best for you, i don’t want you to want me.

I say this today in front of the whole world, because i want the world to know. That you darling , are a Gem. The most precious gem this world will ever see.  You are to be kept safe, close to the heart and protected at all cost.

And if and only if, you feel that i am worthy enough, I,  ask you to be the gem of my life.  To spread light and love in my world, in ways just you can do.

It would of, course not be an easy journey. Because while you might be a gem, you are a stubborn piece.  And so am I. And i am one stubborn ass. But no one said it would be Easy. All they said, is that , It would be worth it. 

From Him

Am I ready?

My life may be a mess but atleast I look pretty in the dress!

This got to be the defining mantra of my life. In case I plan to continue with my sanity,that is. 

Since a few days I have been a mixed bag of emotions. One day I am alarmingly happy. And then gloomy. So gloomy that my friends are scared to even approach me !

And why wouldn’t they be . After all my emotions have reached such heights of confusion that I literally hit my friend with my keys. Straight onto his face. Without a reason.

Thank God he was high ! 😉

These mood swings have been a perennial problem. Although till now they have fortunately been non violent only 😂 . My room is the biggest evidence of this turbulence. Clothes , washed and dirty alike lying on every possible furniture.Bits of paper and tissues  decorating the floor. And then there is me…somehow adjusting for space in the bed between my books and pillows!

So why has my life come down to this?

There could be several excuses.

I am a Cancerian woman,so being cranky is something even my stars have chosen for me! Then there are the female hormones. These i-dont-know-how-they-look substances have the audacity to keep me irritated. And the fact that I can’t do anything about them,only adds to my irritation! Also doctors tell me I have some kind of allergic bronchial asthma ,so the recent weather changes also ensure that I wake up early ,very early morning coughing and gasping for breath and when it finally comes , i cant go back to sleep , because ,hello you have a bank loan to repay,so please attend your classes. let’s also not ignore the fact that I also sleep late ,very late in night, thanks to assignments submissions and hell yeah! Classes.

To be frank ,it would be really bad of me if I did not give myself the pleasure of being irritated and snapping at every body.

Now that I have made a mention of doctors, if I do look from their perspective these are all mere symptoms. Like a fever is just a symptom. The real trouble is something else.

And I believe that something else is CHANGE. Within six months,my life has literally taken a 180 degree turn. Things I had never dreamt of,forget about planning have happened. And have happened so quick that there hasn’t been enough time to even absorb their effects.

For someone who shirked at the very idea of travelling and moving out of the comfort of my house, I have been thrown more than a 1000km away and been home  only once in 6 months for 4 days!

The confidence and wisdom I thought I had gained after the 10+2+4 years of education has all been thrown out of the window. Yeah ,once upon a time in a very distant land I had plans and goals of being the best in whatever I do but ,well ,here I am struggling and fighting to just keep pace with my classmates and professors.

More than the fast paced Bombing of Knowledge at me is the speed at which people have walked in and out of my life.

Strangers from different parts of , not only the country ,  but even the world have become a part of my life. People who have seen so much more of the world than me, from different walks of life, each with their own story now surround me. And among them I have found a few special ones, The ones who I would want to be included in my lists of Forevers 😍.The ones who are family  :).  The ones who have bought entertainment to my life with the best and worst jokes of all times!  The ones who have taught me the true meaning of creative comebacks 😂😂😂 and the ones who very generously give me “gyaan” about this life 😋

My inner goddess has awaken and is looking around. Happily dancing away as it can finally satisfy it’s fantasies with a new crush everyday 😉

Or maybe HE is the same all days 😍😂

And then there are people who have shut their doors on me. The ones I had hoped would not. The ones I had grown not only fond of ,but used to. Their presence no more surprised me,but their absence shakes me up. Sigh. But as they “One fine day”! Hopefully our paths will cross each others’ again. 🙂

So all in all I am amused and perplexed at this new roller coaster ride, one which I hadn’t even asked for or infact even paid for 😑Every moment here is teaching me something. Things I want to learn and things I definitely don’t want to learn.

It’s just that all of it is happening too fast too soon. Maybe I am not ready for such experiences. Not all at once. And not now.

But when has life waited for someone?

And seriously, What is life without some spice?.😉
P.S When they say,do what you love. They are actually right. Writing all of this down has soothed me down. Peppy side up again 😁😊

The STORM

Stop . 
Right there.
And breathe. Obviously you have been doing that for at least a few decades so it must be easy. 
So don’t just breathe. Feel your breath. Feel the fresh oxygen going into your body , doing its job and providing you energy to carry on. Feel the body throw out the carbon dioxide. Feel its warmth. 
Kudos. 
There! You spent one second of your life in the most relaxed way possible. 
And if you continue to do this for even a minute, you will know that “relax” is an understatement. This simple exercise is the most easiest way to rejuvenate yourself instantly.

The next question that comes up is “What exactly is your point Miss ?”

This exactly.
The involuntary need of speed we have almost imbibed in our system. To be always, always in a hurry. Whether its you ,whether its me , we all want things right here, right now!!! And there are no reasons to it. Its just a fact, a herd mentality where none of us wants to be left behind. 

Talking of herd mentality, although it is something looked down by us Human beings, it is just one of the ways we resemble the entire working system of nature and other beings. 
We know the basics- need for food, attention and sunlight.:P 

I want to draw your attention to the similarity of the storms of nature and humans. 
Storms of nature , as defined by humans, refer to violent disturbances of atmosphere, that bring about destruction, more often than not. 

There are innumerable instances in our life ,when we have these exact disturbances spiralling within us with such high intensities that even we tend to destroy all that comes into our path , metaphorically and sometimes literally as well 😛 .
And what is the end of it all? Only wastage. Wasted energy , wasted time and wasted peace of mind. 

Well , the nature does what it has to do. 
But we are humans- the same beings who haughtily pat ourselves on our backs, for we have the best evolved brains and make the most optimum use of them. 
Then WHY do we do this ???

If we have been able to utilise the energy of the wind and the sun and the tides, why do we not utilise our own energy ?

Take a moment to digest the levels of efficiency and overwhelming positivism at the very least , that could result if we harnessed our energies in the right direction.
If instead of throwing and breaking things , we instead decide to better organise them?
If instead of shouting and screaming, we dance it all out or do an impromptu karaoke?
If instead of blaming every body and every thing, we assume it was our fault and work to improve that? 
Or the simplest of all , just take a moment right then and there to feel our life. Slow calm breathing with a look-back on our own story. On how have we actually contributed to our story ? On if we actually were the Hero of our own life?

These are not Herculean tasks after all, although for sure they do look much easier in writing.  

But is it not better to try it out for our own sake and see the results? What if we do have the potential to be able to do this ? What if these storms are just a sign of the impending and freshening Rains of our story ??

As Louisa May Alcott puts it

I am not afraid of the storms for I am learning how to sail my ship . 

 

P.S Writing in response to the prompt of the day STORM

 

 

 

 

 

 

A little tip :)

I have  been really busy these days.
Not been able to keep up with my own challenge.
And like all failures teach you something,this did too.
Dream big for sure,but  remember to be realistic and practical. And oh always ,always have a plan B!”.

Well that’s my learning, not every one will agree to this thought.
You need not to,too.

What is more important for you All to agree and realise is that ,we must learn from everything.
Failure,success or term it anything,we must keep on learning and keep on growing.

Feeling dejected will never help.

Understanding the problem,improving on it, learning definitely will 😃

Shortage of time , forces me to conclude here itself. And since a picture says a thousand words ,here I am sharing a quote I came across which should be the life mantra of one and all.

Cheers to a happy life 😍😇

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The new word of the town *OFFENDED*

Offended? Really that’s all you got ? May be you could have tried “Bored ” Or  “Tired” Or even  the F word! But , why offended darling ?

Well , this is  in reference to the latest Tanmay Bhatt CONTROVERSY. For the uninformed, this guy is a stand up comedian , who made a FUN Video about two Indian celebrities and posted it on social media. The fans of these celebrities got ” offended ” by it and want it removed. 

I really don’t know whether its real public who express their anger on such “Issues” or are they the ” Robots” we always have to prove we aren’t by entering those captchas ?? 

Because this fact is quite disturbing. No , not the existence of robots on Facebook.

But the fact that even in this age and time people got so much free time and emotions that their sentiments get hurt on  each and every joke that is ever made?

Do they Google the most silly thing present today, watch it and then get offended? 

Because ,lets make things clear first. I personally did not find the video even funny. Neither did my friends ( I made them watch it 😛 )  There was no joke .   😦
 And may be that’s the only thing i was hurt about. My expectations not being fulfilled. 

This has become a trend, specially in India. Not only in regard to this video, its just a needle in the haystack! People are using their “Right to speech” to take away other’s right to speech . 

Oh , you say it’s not Good for the society ?

Well yes. There are many things not good for the society. Unlike them , this has a solution. Don’t like it? DONT WATCH IT . Simple 🙂

Because if you were really worried about the society , you would have long gone ,thanks the heart attacks and nervous breakdowns you would have suffered.

Because you would have been hurt ,each time a girl was raped.Whether she was wearing a skirt or whether she was a 2 year old kid !

There would have been a threat to your religious sentiments, each time an innocent animal was sacrificed in the name of faith! And not when a person poked fun at some Godman.

 It would have pained you to see dirty naked little tiny kids beg on the streets in the scorching summer. And then get elated even on receiving a single rupee.

Your anger would have lost its limits when you would have come across the crores of taxpayer’s money being used by corrupt politicians for their Birthday celebrations. Not when a Bollywood movie was made .

You would have been offended when a young Indian sport-star was unable to represent his country , not for the lack of talent , but for the lack of proper infrastructure . And not when someone wore a skirt to her tennis match ..

Trust me , you would have been offended by humanity , every time you read that another bomb was dropped off in Syria or Pakistan or Palestine or  some other place. (Only that would have happened , in case you were actually aware that the world does not revolve around you  🙂 )

And since you are alive and kicking, I am sure none of this happened. There was never an outrage over any of these. Do not mention the various Tweets or Re-tweets or Facebook posts you have shared for the cause. The truth is , they DON’T MATTER . ( Heart breaking , is it ? ) 

 This only  proves you don’t bat an eye lid for the cause of the society.
You are one bored human , who wants cheap publicity by misusing other people’s names.

Calling me selfish , are you ? Well, I will take that as a compliment.  It’s better than being a dual faced hypocrite . Any day!. Try it out  🙂 


P.S
 This does not mean I support non sense humour. I just don’t violently oppose it. These people work for trps.  Dont trend them on media , they will understand and give you better jokes next time 😀 

 

Loving it ??

DAY 11 :

Love is in the air everywhere I look around
Love is in the air every sight and every sound

 

And i mean this literally. Word by word.

With exams over and a few hours of relief before other presentations, i was lying in my room ,randomly surfing the world wide web. Its a web actaully! takes you ages and low battery or no Wifi to come out of it! 😛

Anyways, there i was using Facebook , Instagram , Pinterest  all simultaneously. It was when this thought struck me.
The world is stuck.
Yes , We may be delivering Beers to our friends via drones ! 😛 , but still every other quote or post you come across  today is about one thing only. LOVE.

Take a really pretty picture of either a couple or a landscape, throw in some heavy words , add the Moon and waves to it and there you have a new creation . About how love is a blessing. Or about how love is depressing! 

The entire world around has focussed its attention to just one facet of the magic called LOVE.  There is a guy, a girl , they love , they go apart and so on so forth. 
And this makes me laugh! Sometimes i do get really irritated too , but being the girl I am, i just laugh about it 😛

Is this ALL it is?
By all means NO!  I feel we all must stand up and tell the younger generation this is not all loving is about.  Love is not so black and white. And definitely , Love is not restricted.
Then what is, you may ask? 

Well , I believe love is when you return home after a long time and your pet can’t wait to be all over you. 

Love is when you not  only let your sibling irritate you ,but you also do their work after it ❤

Love is when your mother listens to you complain about the whole world and then makes you cookies to cheer you up . 

Love is when your father tries to act all c-o-o-l and funny in family gatherings 😛 

Love is when you make your teacher proud.

Love is when you listen your friend cry . Love is when you tease your friends and make them cry  !
Love is to get lost in that book , all curled up  and cosy . 

Love is the freedom to live your life your way . 😀 

Love is when you watch all episodes of a series at a stretch and get lost in that fantasy world. 

Love is dancing with your friends. Love is being possessive about your friends  😛

Love is sudden plans and tasty food. 
 Love is cheering for your home team , from 1000 miles away , through a television screen! 😀 

Yes the feeling of growing close to that special someone, getting lost in their thoughts and talks, wanting to spend every moment of your life with them is nothing less than a magical blessing. It is indeed love. ❤ .

Love is caring. Love is caring ( Cheesy enough?  😛 )

So go on , live a loving life. Laugh a lot, cry less , be happy . Fall in love, fall out of love <3.
Because there are no limits to LOVE  😀

P.S As far as I am concerned , Love is knowing that two ladies are upset from me as i won’t be able to meet them , before I head off to another city next week . Ayushi , Mini ❤ 😀 

DID YOU KNOW? “Ringing the wrong rose”

DAY 10 : 
  A third of the 30 day challenge already completed! 😀 

Today I introduce a new section to Peppy Notes!!
THE  “DID YOU KNOW?” stuff  :D.
Knowledge shared is the best knowledge gained. So here I am , all ready to share some amazing and interesting facts and stories. (If its my blog, it’s got to be interesting..don’t worry 😛 )
Alright then , lets begin 😀

Today’s post is going to take you back to your childhood. The pre school days. The days you went to school to eat and play. And , yes sleep ! 😛

Those days are synonymous with lots of colour, no tensions and fun songs ! 🙂
The songs we call Nursery Rhymes. 

There is this one Nursery Rhyme that goes like this ( Obviously you remember! 😛 )
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 Ring a ring o’roses,
a pocketful of posies,
atishoo, atishoo,
We all fall down” 😀  ( And similar versions 😛 )

Do you know what this means? 

Who THINKS about the meaning of nursery rhymes ?

Well , in this case  you should 

The rhyme has a very deeper and darker story attached to it. 
The rhyme dates back to London,1665. The time of  the Great Plague of London.

The “ring of roses” describes the red buboes around the neck of an infected person (swollen lymph nodes);  
“posies” refers to the herbs or flowers that people carried in their pockets to breathe hoping it would protect them from the disease;
“at-choo” refers to a sneeze which was the sign of coming illness.
“All fall down” describes the suddenness of death from what is today called “Black Death” or Bubonic Plague.

Not rosy at all! 😦

Like all stories of folklore and historic times , even this one has its share of oppositions and supporters. You can read about it here Story behind Ring-a-ring-a-roses and here Ring around a rosie . 

But isn’t it fascinating to learn about such tales ? Have you got some ? Please share 🙂

P.S : Not new , but a rather different interpretation of a nursery rhyme. A part of the IBMC Challenge  😀
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No more no NO!!

Peppy Notes !!

The study of nano particles , their physics and their interactions with biological membranes is not difficult.

The calculations of Budgets and Taxable income are not difficult.

Standing on one leg for a day is not difficult.

And then you may ask , if this is easy, then what is difficult??

The most difficult thing is the ART OF SAYING NO. you could call it science too , but I like it this way 😛

The values and morals engraved in us have taught us everything , but, to say no.

Not for all though. There are some great fellows who have mastered this art very well. so well that they blatantly refuse to do things , without even a little respect for others, absorbed in their own little world. This is even in matters , when both a no and yes would not affect them.

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