Am I ready?

My life may be a mess but atleast I look pretty in the dress!

This got to be the defining mantra of my life. In case I plan to continue with my sanity,that is. 

Since a few days I have been a mixed bag of emotions. One day I am alarmingly happy. And then gloomy. So gloomy that my friends are scared to even approach me !

And why wouldn’t they be . After all my emotions have reached such heights of confusion that I literally hit my friend with my keys. Straight onto his face. Without a reason.

Thank God he was high ! 😉

These mood swings have been a perennial problem. Although till now they have fortunately been non violent only 😂 . My room is the biggest evidence of this turbulence. Clothes , washed and dirty alike lying on every possible furniture.Bits of paper and tissues  decorating the floor. And then there is me…somehow adjusting for space in the bed between my books and pillows!

So why has my life come down to this?

There could be several excuses.

I am a Cancerian woman,so being cranky is something even my stars have chosen for me! Then there are the female hormones. These i-dont-know-how-they-look substances have the audacity to keep me irritated. And the fact that I can’t do anything about them,only adds to my irritation! Also doctors tell me I have some kind of allergic bronchial asthma ,so the recent weather changes also ensure that I wake up early ,very early morning coughing and gasping for breath and when it finally comes , i cant go back to sleep , because ,hello you have a bank loan to repay,so please attend your classes. let’s also not ignore the fact that I also sleep late ,very late in night, thanks to assignments submissions and hell yeah! Classes.

To be frank ,it would be really bad of me if I did not give myself the pleasure of being irritated and snapping at every body.

Now that I have made a mention of doctors, if I do look from their perspective these are all mere symptoms. Like a fever is just a symptom. The real trouble is something else.

And I believe that something else is CHANGE. Within six months,my life has literally taken a 180 degree turn. Things I had never dreamt of,forget about planning have happened. And have happened so quick that there hasn’t been enough time to even absorb their effects.

For someone who shirked at the very idea of travelling and moving out of the comfort of my house, I have been thrown more than a 1000km away and been home  only once in 6 months for 4 days!

The confidence and wisdom I thought I had gained after the 10+2+4 years of education has all been thrown out of the window. Yeah ,once upon a time in a very distant land I had plans and goals of being the best in whatever I do but ,well ,here I am struggling and fighting to just keep pace with my classmates and professors.

More than the fast paced Bombing of Knowledge at me is the speed at which people have walked in and out of my life.

Strangers from different parts of , not only the country ,  but even the world have become a part of my life. People who have seen so much more of the world than me, from different walks of life, each with their own story now surround me. And among them I have found a few special ones, The ones who I would want to be included in my lists of Forevers 😍.The ones who are family  :).  The ones who have bought entertainment to my life with the best and worst jokes of all times!  The ones who have taught me the true meaning of creative comebacks 😂😂😂 and the ones who very generously give me “gyaan” about this life 😋

My inner goddess has awaken and is looking around. Happily dancing away as it can finally satisfy it’s fantasies with a new crush everyday 😉

Or maybe HE is the same all days 😍😂

And then there are people who have shut their doors on me. The ones I had hoped would not. The ones I had grown not only fond of ,but used to. Their presence no more surprised me,but their absence shakes me up. Sigh. But as they “One fine day”! Hopefully our paths will cross each others’ again. 🙂

So all in all I am amused and perplexed at this new roller coaster ride, one which I hadn’t even asked for or infact even paid for 😑Every moment here is teaching me something. Things I want to learn and things I definitely don’t want to learn.

It’s just that all of it is happening too fast too soon. Maybe I am not ready for such experiences. Not all at once. And not now.

But when has life waited for someone?

And seriously, What is life without some spice?.😉
P.S When they say,do what you love. They are actually right. Writing all of this down has soothed me down. Peppy side up again 😁😊

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A Picture says a 1000 words ( 722 in my case)

DAY 2 :

As If the 30 day challenge was not enough to satiate my needs of expressing ( and gaining popularity 😛 ) I have also decided to be a part of the Incredible Blogger Marathon Challenge. This is a fun challenge where I have been given 10 tasks to be performed.

And today’s task is called FREEZE A FOTO . I need to select a photograph and describe it , obviously in my own words 😀

As I rammed through my collection of pictures in gadgets ( a laptop and phone 😛 ) , I found this one picture which suits the mood better than everything.
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Well to the unknown , this a photograph of my batchmates from our last fest at college.  We have been living in the same hostel , some of us in the same rooms too for 4 years of our life.  ^.^

And now with our college coming to an end there is hardly a month more before we all go back to our homes and never come back to sleep with each other again. ( Pun intended 😛 )

The four walls of a girls hostel have always been the talking point of all guys in all boys hostel. Of course ,they will  disagree now but then WE KNOW ( Girls always know stuff…don’t they ?  : P)

So well , this post is to Kaveri Hostel . The 4 years we spent here as a famliy . Doing all kinds of stuff TOGETHER .

We have been sick of Kriti always being stuck with her phone : P .   We have been “mesmerised” by Neha’s choicest colourful pyjamas. We have been taught  Food Art by yukta in the mess.
You girls have listened patiently to my random non sense chatter . Like why was I even telling you about my friends of play school ?? -_-
We have been awed by Kavya’s impeccably clean room .
And sneha’s room has always served the purpose of a common room !
Vipasha has irritained (enterain + irritate ) us all times of day. (Why you do this pasha ? )
We have over heard Akanksha’s daily plans , without a choice 😛
We have been swayed by Khushbu’s SWAG .We have been lucky to see Chanchal’s dance moves .
Garima has shown us the use of all face packs 😛  Kanchan is the ultimate hostel hack . You have her. You need no one else.  We have been lucky to see the real face of Kiran- Crazy and mad 😛 . Coy? Never.  We have always been looked after by Kirti .  We have seen Aayushi fall again. And again.
Obviously we have seen Shruti study. But we have also heard her speak Hindi and spell “Kshatriya” 😛 . Rashmi has always been the slowest eater.
We have seen Aditi and Taniya always run for, you know what 😉 We have been wowed by Vedangi’s creativity.  We have all been dragged out of our beds by Shibali . We have all stopped Ritu from singing. Nripa has told us all how and where Himachal is. And also who, how and where Jimmy is ! 😛
We have laughed non stop on Subhagya’s sarcasm.  And we have always, always found food in Sonvy’s room . 🙂

We have gossiped . We have bitched .

We have danced and danced . Nagins and Baratis .We have been Munnis and Sheilas and of course Pritam pyare ❤ 😛 .

We have studied  😛 .

We have somehow digested the mess food for so long. O how much I will miss the Poha 😛

We have seen each other in our sexiest avatars  😉 .

We have tolerated each other’s mood swings.

We have not thrashed the birthday girl 😛 . We have made her the birthday princess ! ❤

We have slept entire days.  And we have talked entire nights.

We have cracked our share of jokes on NIFTEM Studs.  We have fan-girled a lot on REAL studs !

We have slept on each others beds. Cosy . ( Sexy ? 😛 )

We have had monkeys , rats , dead pigoens and a lot of other bio diversity here.

We have made our most dangerous plans.

We have chatted in washrooms.

We have pulled each others legs.

And O lord! We have even played hide –n- seek  😛 😛

And while doing this all we have grown up. From 1st floor and 2nd floor we have all become 4th year mams.
From strangers and awkwardness we have moved to Friendship and shamelessness.

We have found our sisters for a lifetime.  FOREVER ❤

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