Am I ready?

My life may be a mess but atleast I look pretty in the dress!

This got to be the defining mantra of my life. In case I plan to continue with my sanity,that is. 

Since a few days I have been a mixed bag of emotions. One day I am alarmingly happy. And then gloomy. So gloomy that my friends are scared to even approach me !

And why wouldn’t they be . After all my emotions have reached such heights of confusion that I literally hit my friend with my keys. Straight onto his face. Without a reason.

Thank God he was high ! 😉

These mood swings have been a perennial problem. Although till now they have fortunately been non violent only 😂 . My room is the biggest evidence of this turbulence. Clothes , washed and dirty alike lying on every possible furniture.Bits of paper and tissues  decorating the floor. And then there is me…somehow adjusting for space in the bed between my books and pillows!

So why has my life come down to this?

There could be several excuses.

I am a Cancerian woman,so being cranky is something even my stars have chosen for me! Then there are the female hormones. These i-dont-know-how-they-look substances have the audacity to keep me irritated. And the fact that I can’t do anything about them,only adds to my irritation! Also doctors tell me I have some kind of allergic bronchial asthma ,so the recent weather changes also ensure that I wake up early ,very early morning coughing and gasping for breath and when it finally comes , i cant go back to sleep , because ,hello you have a bank loan to repay,so please attend your classes. let’s also not ignore the fact that I also sleep late ,very late in night, thanks to assignments submissions and hell yeah! Classes.

To be frank ,it would be really bad of me if I did not give myself the pleasure of being irritated and snapping at every body.

Now that I have made a mention of doctors, if I do look from their perspective these are all mere symptoms. Like a fever is just a symptom. The real trouble is something else.

And I believe that something else is CHANGE. Within six months,my life has literally taken a 180 degree turn. Things I had never dreamt of,forget about planning have happened. And have happened so quick that there hasn’t been enough time to even absorb their effects.

For someone who shirked at the very idea of travelling and moving out of the comfort of my house, I have been thrown more than a 1000km away and been home  only once in 6 months for 4 days!

The confidence and wisdom I thought I had gained after the 10+2+4 years of education has all been thrown out of the window. Yeah ,once upon a time in a very distant land I had plans and goals of being the best in whatever I do but ,well ,here I am struggling and fighting to just keep pace with my classmates and professors.

More than the fast paced Bombing of Knowledge at me is the speed at which people have walked in and out of my life.

Strangers from different parts of , not only the country ,  but even the world have become a part of my life. People who have seen so much more of the world than me, from different walks of life, each with their own story now surround me. And among them I have found a few special ones, The ones who I would want to be included in my lists of Forevers 😍.The ones who are family  :).  The ones who have bought entertainment to my life with the best and worst jokes of all times!  The ones who have taught me the true meaning of creative comebacks 😂😂😂 and the ones who very generously give me “gyaan” about this life 😋

My inner goddess has awaken and is looking around. Happily dancing away as it can finally satisfy it’s fantasies with a new crush everyday 😉

Or maybe HE is the same all days 😍😂

And then there are people who have shut their doors on me. The ones I had hoped would not. The ones I had grown not only fond of ,but used to. Their presence no more surprised me,but their absence shakes me up. Sigh. But as they “One fine day”! Hopefully our paths will cross each others’ again. 🙂

So all in all I am amused and perplexed at this new roller coaster ride, one which I hadn’t even asked for or infact even paid for 😑Every moment here is teaching me something. Things I want to learn and things I definitely don’t want to learn.

It’s just that all of it is happening too fast too soon. Maybe I am not ready for such experiences. Not all at once. And not now.

But when has life waited for someone?

And seriously, What is life without some spice?.😉
P.S When they say,do what you love. They are actually right. Writing all of this down has soothed me down. Peppy side up again 😁😊

Silly Billy!

Is it me or does someone  else actually make this face ” -_-” , ( yes, exactly like that ) when people ask you statements with a question mark at the end ??

Statements end with a full stop. Have i gone nuts?

No I haven’t . These other people have.

The people who ask you such obvious questions , that you don’t know, whether you are actually  supposed to answer it OR just ignore it OR do “Hain???” (O.o ? )

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UMM…Is that a trick question ???  :O

So as i sit down and think of these SILLY BILLY QUESTIONS , I  came up with answers , not every one will be  HAPPY to hear :P.

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But as far as i am concerned, it would at least give me Satisfaction 🙂

  • So you go to this restaurant with your family, all decked up , looking for a place to sit and there comes the waiter . ” Sir/Mam, DO YOU NEED A TABLE?”
    Well , no , obviously, I don’t . The flooring of the place is very intricately designed. Can we have a carpet for 4 please . Please . 🙂 🙂 🙂 :):)
  • You are somewhere. Could be anywhere. Along comes another human and mistakenly steps on your toe. *Ouch*. “I AM SORRY. DID THAT HURT?”
    Oh, no, it didn’t. If cotton balls fell on my feet, they would hurt. Your pencil heels/ sturdy shoes..NO , of course they didn’t  ^_^. It feels so soft actually.
  • You come back to home sweet home. The person who opens the door is smiling all the way “OH.HAVE YOU COME ?”.
    Have I ? I don’t think so , must be my spirit at work again ! i am still on my way home. Never listens to me. Running around always! -_-
  • And now that you are home , you take out food, sit down and just start devouring on the delicacies ” OH! ARE YOU EATING ? ”
    Puff.. NO! I don’t eat. I am practising magic .Its a trick . I can make food disappear. This is ain’t ‘eating’ . yeah!
  • You have a nice bath . All freshened up , you come out draped in your robe. “OH,HAVE YOU HAD A BATH?”
    Nooooo… Why would you think so ? Its the Hydrogen and Oxygen molecules reacting. 1:2 something . Me? I am just the catalyst  😉
  • Shopping in the mall , picking out clothes and there is always that one long lost friend who comes across “OMG. How long its been. SO WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?”
    Hi!..yeah its been some time. Well, nothing much, I come here to listen to the music .Not only does the FM has great signals here, the playlist of the store is awesome too. Although , I always notice , people shopping here , like always. Who does THAT in a shopping mall!!!! Right?? O.o
  • And this one is my all time favourite !!!!
    7db38e7f66f4e32d3670f9d17b685499Go on , share your Q and A’s . 😛